(500) Days of Summer

“And if all our days are numbered, then why do I keep counting?”

That IS about me and Liz. I like to not think about it since I have my Autumn now, but I still can’t help but feel like I miss her.

“help me get down, I can’t make. help me get down, I can’t make it. help me get down, I can’t make it. If I only knew the answer, I wouldn’t be bothering you…”

It’s a big difference. I finally let go, and I am doing pretty well, but I haven’t forgotten.

I don’t think I ever will.

“I wanted to get over you so I listed a million things that are wrong with you. But in the end I realized, that it was all your imperfections that made me love you like I do.”

However, I think my new girlfriend has great taste in music.

and if I could, and when i could, I will tell her the following:

I was having a horrible summer. I was mopey and lonely and emo. I was Tom Hansen but for longer. I ignored her attempts to get me to see this movie because I was still all hung up about her, I’m getting better though. I still miss her at times but I’ve got someone who likes me for me and hasn’t stopped all of a sudden and is a hurtful conniving  bitch…

that feels good.

 

Serendipity

“Serendipity. Look for something, find something else, and realize that what you’ve found is more suited to your needs than what you thought you were looking for.”

- Lawrence Block

Looking for ways back with her, when a new girl comes along and brightens my day.

Mixtape

I made her a mixtape yesterday. I plan on transferring it to a cassette for pure authenticity. Working on it. Might get fired from Knott’s. Oh well.

Happy

So ignore that previous post, I’m very happy. Things have been bad all summer but someone came along and gave me some hope to hold onto.

Discontent

Life’s been sucking but it’s up to me to make it better.

I haven’t lost my touch

I’m connecting with new people even in this day and age. Sure they still might be female and I need to be cautious with that. Not everyone is a love interest but I also wouldn’t want to rule it out.

“I’m wide awake and waiting.”

The Cure

Saw them twice this past weekend. Amazing times.

Underneath the Stars by The Cure

exhausted

Been really busy. Working a ton, too much for my liking. Oh well. At least it’ll pay off so I may go see my favorite group/band of all time, THE CURE. My friends Sara, Chris, and Cat got me a pit/floor ticket for them in Las Vegas. They will save it for me because I can’t afford it at the moment. I’m very happy they’re doing that since I know I’d go regardless but just have a really bad seat. I still haven’t gotten my Coachella ticket but I’m not too worried about it since I know many people are passing up Coachella just to go to the Vegas show. I say to them “you guys are old!”. I’m still young and I’ll do it all for The Cure.

Steffani is great too. Gonna visit her in March. Should be a blast. I love talking to her.

Here’s an idea of where my time is spent:

Shaded region is work.

and I welcome your sweet hearts that bleed and break…

Steffani asked me to be her boyfriend on Sunday at Knott’s. It was unexpected and way complicated, but I said yes. We have matching bracelets with our names on it. She gave me a V-day card and a box of “sweet hearts” candies, but it was decorated to look like an iPod with Hershey’s Kisses as the earphones. Really clever. I left them in her bag however and didn’t get to keep it. A lot of drama ensued afterwards, from her mom to her, from her mom to me, my ex to me. And the world just came tumbling down. But I’m okay now. Everything is alright.

if only here is where I go…

So today I worked at Subway. It was quite alright. Made sandwiches for customers, did dishes, and made new co-worker friends. After work I went to the swap meet to get another outlet for my wall outlet. The plug is all messed up and is really loose. It doesn’t even have the 3rd insert aka the “ground”. So I was gonna replace it today but got lazy. I went out with Liz today, we went to Subway to eat and just drove around. Went to Best Buy so she could see a computer I was talking to her about that she might want to get. She was also checking out Sprint phones since her contract is gonna expire next month. She might get the Instinct, not sure. She made me a Valentine’s Day card, I didn’t think she would. It pretty much said that “a lot of bad stuff has happened and for some strange reason we’re still friends. It’s been a good 3 years knowing you.” She was upset (not mad, but the girl upset, where you know they cry and stuff) that I didn’t get her a card. I kinda felt bad because I guess I should have made her something. I don’t know. We’re not in a relationship and have just been hanging out so I didn’t think Valentine’s Day was even a thing to celebrate between the both of us.

We broke up October 1st but have continued to hang out as friends since then. 2/13/09 would have been 3 yr anniversary but we just went out as “3 yrs of knowing each other”. It was fun. Saw a movie, they played “Friday I’m In Love” during the credits. I impersonated Robert and sang the entire song and Liz was laughing because it reminded her of The Cured.

Tomorrow I hang out with Steffani, it should be fun. KNOTT’S BERRY FARM.